At Which Point I Start Beating My Head Against A Wall

This is exactly why I hate not having a car of my own...
I got a phone call last night, asking if I can babysit for a family I've been sitting for fairly regularly for the last month and a half. They wanted me there at 6:30 tonight. I told them that I'd do what I could to get a ride, but it hasn't been an issue so far, so I didn't anticipate any problems.
I promptly contacted Chris and my roommate, who are the two people I can count on to get me down there. Abbey said she couldn't, and Chris said he was working till 6, but that he'd let me know today if he'd be able to give me a ride after that.
Assuming that he'd either say yes or give me enough notice to work something else out, I called Crystal, who agreed to bring me home as a last resort, in case I couldn't persuade Ashley to bring me back and spend some time with me.

If I'd known before 6 that Chris wouldn't even respond to me, nevermind not give me a ride, I would have taken the 2 hour bus ride or even walked the 4 hours to babysit...

And now I'm sitting home alone, with nothing to do. And short the $100 I would have made, had I been able to get to South Tampa tonight. :-(
And it doesn't help any that the check they gave me last time bounced, and the $110 that I was going to use to keep my electricity on is suddenly no longer in my possession. ARGH!!!!!!



On another subject, I'm almost fully convinced I'll be moving. Now the only real question is whether I'll be storing my stuff here, or if Gramma will be renting a truck and paying for gas for me so that I can store my stuff in CT.
Granted, there are other questions, like whether or not I'll have to make the drive alone. Or where (or even if) I'll stay for the night on the way up. Or if my parents will let Gary come with for Christmas.


I don't know...I'm just in a million places tonight...and it doesn't help that I feel so incredibly helpless about my own life.
I hate helplessness. That and ambiguity.
Which is why I'm so frustrated about my life. Because I have so much of both right now.

But...
Things can only go up from here, right?