So I've had my "new" keyboard (really Crystal's old one) for two weeks now, and this is my first "Hey, I'm back to real blogging again" post. Because I'm lame.
Oh, and because, in spite of the fact that my life has been chaotic and crazy and far from boring, I feel like I have nothing to blog about.
EXCEPT!! The 3 Doors Down concert with Jackie last Friday was AMAZING!!! I can't even say how good she is to me and how much I appreciate her willingness to buy the tickets and pay for dinner and drive us down there. :-)
And... I'm starting to feel a lot better about being here. I actually have a semi-opportunity to go back to Tampa this summer/fall (more on that another time), and I'm seriously considering at least crunching numbers and see if it can work. But... I'm not miserable here. Mom and I are actually getting along pretty darn well. Dad's...we'll...he's my Daddy. Nick is definitely becoming the true teenager he is, but I can deal with that. And Pablo's almost never home.
And Jenn has been my saving grace. Honestly. I love my friends in Tampa, don't get me wrong...but I didn't get a lot of girl conversations. There were always guys around. Guys are nice, don't think I'm saying they're not...it's just different when it's just a couple girls spilling everything. And I realize now how much I missed that. How much I needed that. Needed to be able to just talk about myself and my insecurities and guys and love and sex and fears and religion and family and...everything. I honestly have told her things I didn't think I would ever tell anyone...She truly has become my closest friend here, and I can't be happier about it. I haven't had that since Heather lived in CT, and it's one of those things you don't know how much you missed until you get it back. And it's nice to hear another girl talk, too. Not guys...not conversations edited for guys...just girl to girl honesty. (And it's nice to sometimes have her husband around to give me a mature, halfway sane man's opinion on things...when asked. :-P )
I owe my sanity to that girl.
I really don't know what I'll do if/when she moves... (Not that I don't deserve it, after leaving myself...)
So...yeah.
I'm happy. Or at least very much working towards it.
Anyway...sleep has been immensely elusive recently...
And since I'm getting sleepy now, I'm going to try my luck at getting some shut-eye before 3am.
'Night!
2 comments:
aww - honey, I feel the same way about you! You are my closest friend here and I'm having trouble believing that I survived without you while you were gone - I certainly didn't have anyone to sit and vent/chat with, well, not a girl at least, and I know I'd go crazy if I didn't have you for that now. You have no idea how many fewer emotional breakdowns I've had since you've been back, honestly, for awhile I was getting out of control.
And if there is a move it wouldn't be until summer if not later, but in this economy who knows what's going to happen.
I swear, Jenn...
I don't know how I made it without you so long... THANK GOD I have you now. Really...the thought of living here and dealing with all this parents/no work/Gary/synagogue/just plain life drama WITHOUT you... Wow...
And...at the risk of sounding clingy and desperate (which I'm not!!), I really don't know what I'll do if you leave...lol...you might have to get a place with an extra bedroom for me. ;-)
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